1/3 terminated

Oh man, I haven't posted any shit for a billion years. I guess there is simply nothing worth for me to talk about since my last post. So homies, I really do hope you guys are coping well enough in everything, be it studies, friends or families. So what's the latest news? Well, I have completed 1/3 of my poly life and this was constantly the perennial wait.

Alright, honestly I would really love to give you guys unique posts with unique shit. But I got to apologise as I seriously haven't been through anything good for this entire period and I hope I can just blast them out this one last time, it will be the last time I promise.

Well, two words to sum it up, "Shit Happens!" When things just don't turn out the way you expect, it's nobody's fault and all we can do is to adapt to the shit that has to happen which is unfortunately part of life. Firstly, my results in my first semester were screwed up and the feeling was like your balls stuck in your throat. Seriously, it doesn't feel good when you flunk like shit when you just entered poly. I failed two subjects but luckily I managed to pass them at the end as I guess I was capable. In fact, I didn't give it my best at first but anyway those two subjects are the ones I am really bad at. All I can only do now is to take it in my stride, strive harder next semester and achieve better results. I am already halfway through the course and I have no choice but to do my best in it. Worrying ain't gonna get me anywhere. Nevertheless, I am sure my results this semester will be much better as I had worked my whole ass off.

I am really tired of being affected by studies, it is really hitting the hell out of me like a punching bag. But come to think of it, it's just a small thing in life. I will have to face even bigger shit in the future. Besides studies, the other shit which had to happen was pertaining to my social life. What can I say? "Shit Happens!" I was wrong about myself, I thought everyone could become my friend. But unfortunately, I am not even talking to any of my classmates now. I don't hate them, but I don't feel connected to them somehow. Furthermore, I suddenly felt too tired to socialise, due to my results last semester and some pathetic minor shit which I think it's not worth mentioning. I was right about myself, there's no need to make friends. Don't get it twisted, I don't mean we should marginalize anyone but rather just let nature takes its course when it comes to friendship. Anyway, I am glad I will be in a new class next semester and meet new friends. My plan is just to let things be. In any case, I don't regret any of my actions, coz I was desperate to make friends as you know what happened to me last time and I learnt a lifetime lesson from it. I couldn't adjust to poly life at the start, but now I am more prepared for what's to come. At least I can prove I am human, I wouldn't be if everything was perfect.

To end this, I would like to thank David. To my old friends, David is indeed a very good and loyal poly friend I have met. David, I wanna thank you for being a true friend who tries to understand who I really am and help me in the best possible way. I think you are friend who is hard to come by, unlike certain friends and yes I mean friends who think they know everything about me when they actually have only seen the surface of the water. Let me say this to all of you, "Still Waters Run Deep". Although we will be studying different things next year, we shall still meet up for meals in school aite.

Yeah and its holidays now, I am still planning what to do. I will be working soon, hang out with the usual dudes and buy some stuff which I need. With this, I shall end this post.

Time for a break

There will always be a time when someone needs to stop whatever he is doing and just take a break. I have decided to take a break.

Honestly, I am extremely exhausted. I am tired of everything. I need to rest. I am not going to strive to do well in anything for now. I will just take anything that comes and follow where the wind blows. What's meant to be mine will be mine and what isn't will never be mine. For the whole of last year, nothing went in my way. Despite the effort I put in, hoping for something positive to happen, only bullshit showed up at the end. I am really tired of working so hard trying to be number one. I was once number one and that was an achievement I had. It is a fact that will remain throughout my life. Unfortunately, I had to meet my downfall. I tried to do well as what I expected but to no avail.

Now I will just do my best, but I will not have any intention to be the best. I guess this is a lesson for me, one cannot always be at the top and things do not always go the way we want. Perhaps this is the life for me now. I now pronounce myself shutting down, for a very long time. It is really time for a break.

Sentosa

On friday, I went to Sentosa with my classates. It was a freaking cool day. We met at vivocity and sat the mini train which goes to sentosa from vivocity.

We went to the beach at Siloso. I was the only one who dressed inappropriately somewhat. Everyone was in beach wear, but I was in hip-hop wear. Haha! They played volleyball, got themselves wet and played around the sand. I didn't join them for volleyball, I played captain's ball though. At night, we sat down by the water and chilled. They were singing chinese songs. Lol! Then, we went to wash up and went back to vivocity.

Three of them went home after that. The rest of us had dinner at food court. Next, we went to the open area at the top of vivocity. We sat down as a group there and just chatted about anything under the sky. We stayed till quite late and caught the last train. To sum it up, it was a enjoyable day. I hardly had such outings with a group of friends for the past few years.

Wow!

I have not written any shit for quite awhile. I just wasn't in the mood to talk about anything the past few months. But I guess its time I get shit cracking.

I had a superb experience last saturday. I learnt wakeboarding! It was freaking cool. I finally tried another extreme sport. I love individual sports like this. When it began and I held onto the handle, the boat started moving and pulled the hell out of me. I fell the first time immediate of course. I kept felling at the start. But at the second time, I managed to stand up and balance on my wakeboard. I was quite a distance away from the shore and the senior told me to hold on till we reach back. In the process of wakeboarding, my whole body was tiring out. The lactic acid was building up in my muscles every second, but I was telling myself to hold on and not give up. I balanced myself all the way back. When I was back at the platform, the glucose in my body was used up and my muscles were exhausted. Nevertheless, I felt proud that I actually wakeboarded. It was really considered my best experience of 2009.

At the moment, I am still unsure if I should remain in wakeboarding. It is quite expensive and I joined another cca, producton crew. I don't know if I am able to handle 2 CCas. Wakeboarding is actually only once a month, which I actually don't mind. But they have compulsory trainings every week which is making me re-consider. Anyway, I will see how it goes and think about it.

I just finished my mid-semester test and the 2 weeks break is here. I guess I will be chilling with not only my primary and secondary friends, but POLY friends. Sounds cool doesn't it. 2 words to sum up my poly life, TP RAWKS. Frankly, I am having a fantastic life in poly now. It is a new phase for me. Needless to say, you guys should know I am a happier and different person now. The past is history and what I got now is the present moment. Cheers!

And that has made all the difference

After all the years of effort and hard work for the sake of making a difference in my life, I realised we do not always get the expected results. I will be going to a place known as Temasek Polytechnic. I have gotten into business/logistics and operations manangement/marketing. I am glad I am able to study something which suits me and can benefit me in life.

When I saw the results via sms in my handphone, I immediately remedied that I cannot always be so sure that I will achieve what I want. I was quite dissatisfied of course as you all know I wanted to enter mass communication. I did not even make it to any of my first few choices. Apropos, it is written on my tagboard that I almost died. This is the analogy of what happened. Throughout the five years, I know deep in my heart I have give it all. Things went quite smoothly initially. My effort paid off on the whole. Last year, I assumed it would not be of any problem to me and I will do as well as before. I had setbacks unexpectedly though. I felt hardships inexorably during that period of time. It is pointless to describe the events in detail as I do not wish to bring up the past. Well, I did not know such things would happen and thought everything would go in my way. I did not performed as well as I thought I will, but I still managed to barely pull through and did my best afterwards.

In the end, I had results which I refused to believe I had them, cause I knew I supposed to achieve much better than that. For the past few months, I have not been doing well at all, though I may appear to be lively on the outside. I just found it difficult to forget everything as I knew this should not have happened, which is irrevocably the fact now. And it really feels melancholy when although my results was not bad, I still did not make it to the first few choices. And I believe all my friends got what they at least wanted although they did not do as well as I did. The irony of the irony in life huh? Things turn out well when you do not feel positive and things becomes trash when you feel positive.

That was somewhat an account of my life last year. And just recently for the past two days, I have sorted it out. Perhaps there is a reason why I have to go Temasek poly. There may be just something great awaiting there. Now I should work on how can I do well in poly and not look back at the past. I should not be disappointed anymore and be positive of the future. Honestly, I am glad I am entering Tp. I wanted to go Np very much, in the end I am going to Tp. At least I get to travel to a different environment. It is also a chance for me to unwind as I have already been so stressed for such a long time. If I am in mass communication, there will be intense competition as there are smart asses around. Moreover, it will be more stressful in Np. In the course I am going to, it is much more relaxing and I may meet good people there too. I guess there is something good behind everything after all. Now I know I should not have too much hopes on something and the notion that what I expect will happen eventually.

My life is about to get better and that has made all the difference!

The unknown future

It's a matter of time before a new life begins. In other words, I am about to enter poly. Frankly, I am a bit fret though I got to let nature takes its course. It's hard to explain why. Perhaps it's just I don't know how will it be like, who will I meet and what's gonna happen. Anyway, I have made my choices. Hopefullt, it's the right one and it will provide me with what I need. It is really gonna be a tough trek ahead. Of course it is never easy to achieve something that will bring you to another level. I have decided to post this to let you have a look. Here are my choices.

1st - NP, Mass Communication

2nd - SP, Media & Communication

3rd - TP, Communications & Media Management

4th - NP, Advertising & Public Relations (new course)

5th - NP, Film, Sound & Video

6th - NP, Business Studies

7th - SP, Business Adminstration

8th - TP, Business Studies Grouping

9th - SP, Human Resource Management With Psychology

10th - TP, Retail Management

11th - NYP, Media Studies & Management

12th - NYP, Marketing